Re: selfish??
it could be money, beauty or it could be that given his back ground, history in relationships as he made me aware of them, he feels inferior in himself.
and in my helping him, whole heartedly to get over this feeling, he completely missed my sense of honesty and saw my strong ness as a threat. such a tragedy of errors, for him.
he said in his last email that Allah has shown him a vision and a truth
I would like to know that truth and vision, but since he is hollow,
he cannot and will not ever be able to come in person to me, and reflect on his mistake, as that is and will not get him his peace of mind, even if he was cheap and a liar.
educational class difference in families was there and all families can and do have their good and bad, i agree with that,
but i did not see that our happiness in planning to get together, can become crushed so easily for him, because of ill-meaning premeditated escape.
people tell me, good riddens, or as i tell about this instance to anyone, at GS or in my actual surroundings and circle of friends or family, no one can go beyond either 'i am sorry he is so bad" or " he will get what he deserves" or " he was not meant to be for you" or "stop finding excuses for him" or "he was not worthy of you", i will never forgive him or may be the same Allah, can show him he went gravely wrong, again, this whole blaming Allah for his decisions is not right and he knows that too.
YET, there are some things that only the two of us can resolve together and alone as two people who started out alright, but then he played his game.
and no matter how much he talks to someone about all of it and they tell him to own up to his mistake in having caused a betrayal, (if he is honest and decent at all) , he wont be able to muster enough courage to come back and apologize and give a good explanation.
yes... i know...the world is full of such people...who gave more preferences to money..status...beauty..or something else rather than promises....