If I will say that number 1, then, I am indulging myself into realm of Pride and if I say number 2, then it’s against my ethical concious though I would have done it in life many times out of ignorance or misguidance (for all humans make mistakes according to hadeeth) ..
So, I would rather look into myself and ponder upon making it better and be fearful of the judgement day but keep a hope that Allah:subhanahu: knows what’s inside of my heart and He’s Ghafoor-ur-Raheem… Let it be between me and Allah - and not between me and people like me who are already facing the similar question
JazakAllah khair Anwaar bhai for a realistic and honest reply. I feel the same, but I wish to seek strength from Allah to bless me with the will, wisdom and "taufeeq" to follow the option 1.