Ever felt completely deadened within? The phase which comes whenever you feel depressed, alone, uncared for and just seem to be retreating from everything? Everyone.. except complete strangers. I seem to be putting on one very social face for everyone. I feel so completely lost as to whether I mean that or whether its just there. I dont seem to want to open upto people who mean the world to me. I hurt but let it fester on and on. Sadism..
Trust me you ain't alone. Half the world at any given time is probably feeling the same. Hang in there..after rock bottom things can only go up.
DD you are BACK!!! 
I am so glad!! 
Demesne: As DD said, you are not alone. (try reading my thread titled “Exhausted”). Try to take a time out, gently tell everyone you need some time to yourself (I am sure your loved ones will understand). And when you get some time to yourself, think as to what the reasons are and why cant you open to up the ones you care for. Maybe something happened, thats at the root of the whole problem. If the ones you love see you sharing your happy and sad times with others but not them, it will just hurt them more and may make things worse. Try figuring it out and InshaAllah things will be better.
If you really do feel anti-social, then take a time-out from everyone…go crash on the bed with a fun book and chocolate. I tell ya, chocolate makes life…very bearable! Hopefully you will feel better after you are well rested.
Hehe, yes i am Ira 
Arggh, it’s so hard man. When you’re down what used to be the most interesting things are suddenly colourless and boring. Demesne dontcha worry…the greatest people in history used to get depressed…forget us little gupsters.
girl from damascus, have you ever considered smoking a well rolled joint?
Have you ever considered not listening to depressing music? Put on something like "We will rock you" and let the good times roll.
Also, don't questoin who you portray to people, that may very well be the real you, just because there is a major contrast between what you are feeling now and how you usually feel doesn't mean that one or the other are not a part of you, or "fake". If I understand waht you mean correctly, in the end, it'll be better in hte morn.
Anyone have sleep in pill form for me?
I feel for you so much. I was on that road in my life once. Its so easy to get sucked back onto it.
Its kind of like a vacuum isn't it? You just get pulled into it and pretty soon, you've lost control - can't get out of it.
The best advice I can give you: Just keep fighting. Surround yourself with things that you like - do the things you like to do, and get away from people that are making you feel this way.
I used to go to the beach a lot during those days. Just look out onto the neverending ocean. Look up at the neverending sky. And then it hits you. Your possibilities are neverending. So there is this one possibility that you dont get pulled into the vacuum. That your fight against it is successful. And then once you've grasped that - your freedom to do what you want - then you'll win.
i dont know how this is relevant to this thread but i just had to say that i really like people from the great city of karachi who wear specs and currently a brownish shirt and live in the interior room at the address i am currently thinking of in LA (and cannot reveal because fbi will catch me 
i mean him er them). :k:
forgive me.. i am new to having another gs posters password
i will stop talking now.
demesne! why what a pleasant surprise!
alright who's the goofball who made u saaaaad grabs club
btw i think you have excellent taste when it comes to people. i also like the brown shirted bespectacled guy.
cabbage man, is that you in drag as this damascus dame?
er nahi im the 'damascus babe'..kher..that..total depression has lifted somewhat. cried myself out of it..im the very opposite of antisocial. im mingling a lot with a lot of strangers. and amazingly social mingling. i started medical college on the first. and in four days ive made a trillion 'friends' and everyone there knows me. but..the people who ..know me i dont talk to anymore..not really..
*The best advice I can give you: Just keep fighting. Surround yourself with things that you like - do the things you like to do, and get away from people that are making you feel this way. *
PCG u are so right. and this is why im retreating. cos the people who love me and whom i love are who are making me feel this way..i dont know..i dont want to ever retreat from them..but..
aww cabbage, you are so adorable as the damascus babe. and its okay to cry, but please dont wear a skirt. and remember, there's always prozac for those extra hard days.
queer since when did you start finding anyone in a dress adorable? thats such a straight thing to say.
I really dunno wut to tell ya.. cus i do kno one thing.. "It is easily said then done" ... but i do have one advice for you though... sharing is nice... it makes you feel a lot better.. and atleast u get to kno so many new perspectives.. mayb sumthing click with you and u'll find your peace ?! hmmm ?
tam tam..i feel way better abh to. yeah i guess sharing stuff gets it out of system, maybe it was a phase, maybe it was crap. whatever it was its so totally gone now thank God:)!
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Ever felt completely deadened within? The phase which comes whenever you feel depressed, alone, uncared for and just seem to be retreating from everything? Everyone.. except complete strangers. I seem to be putting on one very social face for everyone. I feel so completely lost as to whether I mean that or whether its just there. I dont seem to want to open upto people who mean the world to me. I hurt but let it fester on and on. Sadism..
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yeah I know that feeling quit well..but somehow things get worse if u dont lket urself feel that way for a while..its really important to give urself the space to feel dead but not for too long either!!!!
I just went through a revival this morning..thanks God!!!!!!!