sabriya you are so young!! you are lucky that u are only 21..you have SO much time to do all the things you want to do. I would try going back to school or getting involved in some work/volunteering to keep ur mind busy and have a chance at meeting (nice) people. there is nothing that can give u more satisfation than if u are successful and accomplished...that is the best revenge.
as for your parents...this is entirely to blame on them....i would NOT blame urself...i have seem many cases like this...3 recently!! im not even joking...where they were forced and withing 1-2 yrs its a divorce. There is nothing wrong with getting a divorce, you will meet someone else and your life will go on....you are so young u have a lot of time. I would have a discussion with your parents if u have not already....do they know he cheated on you etc...? if they do and still are not on ur side...then i dont know what to say...i would get everything out i was really feeling to them..ull feel much better. good luck
Hey why does everyone think i'm not in school??! Lol I'm still in school, just taking 3 classes though cuz I cant even focus on all that yet... and I work 20 hours a week at my school library... it's not much, but it helps get my mind off of things....
My parents are weird. I really question whether they even love me or not... my dad took me to Pakistan last month to have a talk with my susraal and let them know whats been going on and to tell them I'm sorry but this is just not working and I have to get divorced... so everything was fine and dandy, until my mother had a fit about the fact that her "bechara" brother is so unhappy about everything that had happened, and that Islamically he can have two wives, im selfish, blah blah blah... all this drama! so finally my dad went back to being on her side... my mother basically told me she wants nothing to do with me, and my dad always had to hide the fact that he was coming to meet me, so I got pissed and told him that if he couldn't be open and honest with my mother that he supports me, then I don't want anything to do with him... apparently, that was asking for too much from him and he cut off all contact with me. Luckily my brothers are fine with me, and I have their support but I know they feel guilty about going behind their parents' back and whatever so I dunno how long this is gonna last....
If not college, then professional school, grad school, etc. Its really fulfilling, and maybe it'll help you realize that you're your own person: a strong-headed brave girl who had the courage to get out of a situation you were unhappy in, despite parental and family pressure, and you're now out to live your life and make your own decisions.
Good advice from PCG.
You have gotten married too early in life. You would have missed out a lot. Take it as an opportunity to carry on and complete your education. Best wishes!
If you persevere, it'll make you a much stronger person! Isha'Allah this experience will teach you hidden lessons that you would not have learnt if you were to stay married.