After learning of the attack?. I woke up at fajr and saw headlines in my mobile phone. First thing i did was..turned the tv on. And just stuck to TV. I think operation just ended by then. My whole day at work went pretty down. Just couldn’t pay attention to anything. I felt like shedding my tears but couldn’t. Came back home..couldn’t eat properly..stuck to tv…and finally broke down when i was in my room. It has been like that..ever since.
3 days cant sleep properly,cant eat properly,…about crying…remember bloody shoe of one of the angels from the pics…almost the same size as my daughter…go figure the rest yourself.
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My parents can’t sleep either..nor can I. Everybody is just speechless. I wish i had words or any other emotion to express how i feel.
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I am restless, depressed and angry. One thing I never do is to watch related videos or images. It does not give me anymore info, but it makes me mentally more disturbed.
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Kept up with news updates through out the day at work and every time there was an update I cried. I have daughters ages 7 and 8. I am still very heavy hearted. I 2nd TLK’s emotion about anger. I wanted to go and kill these animals myself.
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I woke up and checked my phone first…found this news plastered all over FB. Woke him up, we switched on the TV and were glued to it since.
Its mind numbing…sick…horrific…proof that insaan janvar bhi bansakta hai. They show footage of the school rooms, the teachers, the blood on the floor and it just makes me cry.
There are no words to describe its effect…no words…everything you say falls short. Because none of us can even begin to imagine the pain of the people who actually are dealing with it. Those parents, mothers, sisters, brothers, etc who lost a child…just like that.
I know one thing…no court on this planet can punish those monsters the way Allah swt will punish them. They can run and hide but one day they will face their Creator and when they do…justice will be served.
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I have been crying since. I haven’t told my six year old son, although he heard other family members talking about it. We just came back from Pakistan, he enjoyed it so much that he is already planning his next visit(this was his first visit), his little mind will be affected if I tell him and probably scared to visit again.
Same, had a restless night. But woke up for fajr and read the headlines. My parents were up and we watched the news and cried together.
Since then, it’s all we talk about. I can’t look at the graphic images and couldn’t even imagine watching the videos. But the posts people post like “the smallest coffins are the heaviest” and the poems… it makes the pain sort of hurt more.
I I know the image DMD is talking about. I felt the same. It’s the same size as my niece’s shoes. Absolutely broke my heart more than it already was.
I’ve stopped checking the news and only check the GS thread a few times a day. I feel helpless.
My mom hasn’t slept properly in the past few nights. We haven’t made anything special at home.
Today, at breakfast, my brother jokingly said “we’re all grieving as if we lost our family members”. And my mom bursts into tears and says “imagine how the real family members must be feeling!”
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We are all grieving because it so easily could have been us. These were people like.us. its too close to home. That’s why.
Can’t sleep can’t do anything don’t want to go out
And that shoe pic. All over fb. No words
We all have kids. Its the thought that is still making me cry today.
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restless and disturbed..havent been out since 3 days..havent sent the boys to school and now they have forced-shut the schools for 2 weeks. I have been watching the news and videos now after 3 days. I have not told the boys..they are too young to know. Wept a lot but it is all meaningless when I think about the mothers who lost their boys 
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Please do not call those terrorists animals. Even animals have dignity.
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I have been very depressed since this episode and very angry. Watched this whole thing unfold on TV and as the casualty figure rose I became very restless and whole day I could not concentrate on work. I am still very depressed. Tonight we will be lighting candles in our house and street for the little angels.
I keep looking at the pics of these innocent souls. I keep thinking what must have gone through their little minds. They must be very brave to face and go through. I am not brave like them. I am constantly crying. They didn’t deserve this. I didnt know them before now I want to know each and everyone of them. They need be recognized not forgotten.
life goes on but what about their families parents.
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same feelings here…grief…anger…frustration…lack of focus on daily responsibilities…
my child is old enough (about the same age as many of the boys executed) to understand the loss of life and we’ve had several conversations about this tragedy.
this is the first event that has prompted me to actually attend the vigils and prayers.
in order to distract myself from the inescapable pain and sadness, I have assigned myself the mandate to use this opportunity to teach my own daughter what we must do as a global community when injustice takes hold.
pray, protest and come together to promote unity…
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I was thinking today..keh hum log apas mein bahot lartay hain..jhagaray hain. From Government level to individuals. Allah kay wastay..band kardain sub kuch. Let us unite..and move forward in positive way. There will always be disagreement between us…but how can we contribute together as a nation. Coz..i would love to contribute in other ways. Any ideas?..other than sending money..which i am sure we all do.
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Wasn’;t able to concentrate at work for 2-3 days. Kept checking my FB aginst better judgment. Cried every so often, even at my desk, reminded me of Sandy Hook that happened 2 days + 2 years ago. Lots of FB statuses were depressing but what really moved me? Variations of “mom my shirt is ruined from ink, don’t get mad/mom my shirt is ruined iwht blood, don’t cry.” Idk. Terrible terrible thing :hinna: