Thanks Straight up and aameen to what you said ..
Who took care of your family money wise and what is your number in your family.
How insecure you felt?
I took care of my family at that time .. thank god I was in USA so although my job was not very high paid at that time but I was able to send couple of hundred dollars home every month ..
I have one older sis who was married, I am second (not married at that time, in fact they were coming for my wedding :D) ...then two more younger siblings ..
I wish no one feels as insecure as I felt. That was a feeling, I dont even want to wish upon my enemies (not that I have any :D) .. may allah protect the parents of all the young people.