i read all of what you have written it some of the urdu i could not understand. From my opinion i say get a divorce you are still young, beautiful and intelligent. You can seriously make a go of your life again. If you continue down this path i personally think it will get worse with time. If you have no feelings other than friendship for your husband then seriously leave him. I also think your husband is being selfish he says he isn’t attracted to you so you can not consummate your marriage but he won’t divorce you.
Seriously do you want to live without love, companionship and the joy children bring. Paying for your cloths and food does not constitute a marriage in my view. Seriously do isthakhara and see what happens. Remember follow the path that you think is right for you and you alone this is the time to be selfish. Live your life with no regrets.