Re: need help..i’ve kept it in inside me to long:'(
Fizz read below. what SU said.
finally some one who understands me 
RV I admire your efforts so much. Like so very much.
You know some time issue are beyond the realm normal logic. There base cant be found with in our brain.
You definitely are an asset but I suggest you study some unusual stuff/events.
Start from abnormal psychology. Read some true crime stories. Watch some twisted documentary.
That IF you don’t have sources to observe twist-ness(if this is a word.) first hand.