Re: need advise...cant decide abt shadi:(
honey I know it is tough, esp when you have been engaged for four years and that is a long time. Girls' affections are long lasting and love can even hurt then.
no love is not always enough. you need to have mutual understanding respect and most of all trust. He broke your trust quite badly and he even does ignore you. And you spend most of your time crying for him.
So just sit down, question yourself. do you really want this!? It is a matter of rest of your life.
The best option would be to pray 2 nafl of istekhara and ask Allah Swt to help ease your path and decide the best for you.
Have you talked about your fears and your fiance's formal cheating incident with any of your family? I think you should confide into someone who can exercise some influence on your family.
Otherwise, you have to be strong. it's better getting hurt for once and then moving on, rather than for the rest of your life!
hugs