Re: my first experience....
My first relationship was ofcourse with a paki girl and i loved it.....the way it ended it'll always be in my heart and i will always remember that..........i think about her sometimes ,the time i spent with her and the jokes i use to share with her in URDU ...and they way we use to sing together those vital signs songs.... and talking about famous childhood drama characters and discussing particular episodes..everything in urdu....laughs after laughs ....the way it ended it discouraged me so much that i promised to my self that i would never fall for any paki girl ........ after that i had couple of relationships with gori's...and then ended up marrying a gori .... and i'm happy about it and satisfied with my decisions.....but i always felt something missing even to this day.....i really miss communicating with someone in URDU..sharing my good moments,problems etc with someone close to my heart whom i can speak with in urdu...........i always found it way easier to express my self in english rather than urdu but....there is something different something so appealing in Urdu that can never be explained in words... .....and its so sad that i'll always miss that one good part.....ahhh memories and wishes sometimes really gives u a hard time......
That is the reason, personally I think it is really hard for a relationship , as you one really has to work harder on wat is already a hard relationship (marriage) to begin with. Its just some parts of the jokes as well normal conversation that basically looses its essence if u would translate it into english.I guess she would feel the same way too when she would have to explain something that for someone who is a gora and already know the cultural jokes etc.
And btw, we humans always reminescence about times ...good time gone:)...Hopw u feel better:)