Always in my dreams I’m there for him, bringing a blanket when he’s cold, water when he’s thirsty and helping him walk around the house. Just him and me usually at night, I don’t sleep but keep vigil while he rests.
I don’t wake until he’s content and I feel fulfilled.
I know he was happy with the way I lived my life while he was alive, I know he never worried for me, in his last few days he said as much to his brothers.
When I wash my face I feel his hand on my cheek as a child, I look at my daughter and I see his eyes.
I’m happy that he’s able to share my joy now more than ever.
My dad died 5 years ago today, but never left my side.
Tough times when certain times of the year remind you of an important loss. But this year is different thappie...you have a wonderful addition to the family, I am sure your dad is smiling somewhere.
My dad also passed away on christmas day in 1996. Holidays are tough but time makes memories more fonder and the pain less.
I was in t/ u.s. when I received that dreadful call that my Dad had passed away. I still remeber my sister screaming and my mom wailing into t/ phone when she came online. I felt numb. I cudn't make it for his funeral. To this day hhowever, I'm don't really feel he's gone. I feel he's still in Pakistan waiting for me.Wierd isn't ? He never saw me get married, he never saw his first grandchild. I feel very sad that he missed these milestones in our lives. He passed away 6 yrs ago this past October, but seems only yesterday I got that phone call.
I guess what I'm trying to say is you're not alone to face these tough times.
p.s.Congrats on t/ birth of your daughter. When did this happen?? What have you named here?
He’s watching over you Thappy…you just know he is…past year has been nothing but blessings for you…good souls spend their time in heaven doing good on earth..
Awww, anyone who’s lost anyone will know exactly what you mean and feel. I miss my Grandma, and the thing i really really miss the most is her cackle of a laugh. Sometimes when i speak to elderly gauriya on the phone and they have that ‘oooh dearie me’ type english with the soft, cute voices..it so reminds me of her, my eyes fill up.
To be honest i don’t think the pain lessens..still hurts just as bad but life doesn’t let you mope around and linger..you just get swept away in everything but there’s always that part of you that carries on grieving.
On a happier note, now that you have a new girl in your life you’ve all but forgotten your other umpteen loves. When do i get the family portait?
Thappy and Mats, sorry to hear of your respective losses but know that as time goes on, you think of your deceased loved ones very fondly WITHOUT suffering pain and tears because truly, they haven’t left your side at all. They are always next to you like angels guiding you every step of the way through life.
