Re: Muslim anymore?
I hope Allah accepts my repentence and i hope what you say is true!
:) :) :)
Peace kb syed
Do you know that even to "have the hope that Allah accepts your repentance" is a sign that He has ... inshaAllah He has ... because He has given you tawfiq to seek Him with your worries and concerns and that in itself is a form of worship.
In Surah Fatihah we say - "It is only You we worship and from only You we ask for help" - it means that worship is of two main kinds - Praising Him and asking from Him ...
How do we know that Allah (SWT) is displeased with us ... We know this when we do not remember Him ... If we sin then this is human ... if we feel guilty and repent then this is His Mercy to us for giving us the ability to be guilty and amend our ways ... To sin is to be distracted and turn away from our intended direction. Repentance means "turning back" ...
But if we sin and take pleasure in it, forget Him and stop worshipping Him, and continue in that state and our state increases to the extent that we do not believe in Him and we continue in that state increasing our stray ways and taking pleasure in them - then is the sure sign that Allah (SWT) is not pleased with us because He has not given us the ability to realise our mistakes ... and Allows us to continue making them ...
I hope this satisfies your concerns ... Here is an anecdote that should satisfy you ...
A murderer who has killed 99 men, feels guilty and wants to be forgiven so he goes to a pious man and asks him about it ... The pious man says "well you have murdered 99 people there is no chance you will get forgiven", so the man gets angry and kills him too.
So now this murderer walking around with the burden of 100 on his list ... asks people how he can be forgiven ... so he gets directed to this Spiritual Master on a mountain side and this master listens to his story and says ... Yes ... there is a way ... Go to this place for it is holy and pray there for forgiveness ... And it so happens this murderer set off on his journey to seek forgiveness ... it was a shrine in a far away land ... and soon after he sets off ... the angel of death comes to take his life away ...
Now the angels are confused ... they say to Allah (SWT) which place shall we take his soul ... to the abode of good souls or to the abode of the bad? Allah (SWT) gives them a solution ... They are told to measure the distance between his place of death and the start of his journey and the place of his death to the end of his journey and if he is closer to his destination to put his soul in the abode of good souls and if the destination is further then to put his soul in the abode of bad souls ...
Now we know that he was much nearer his departure point not his arrival point ... but as the angels came down to measure the distance - Allah (SWT) commanded the ground from his departure point to expand and the ground to his destination point to contract ... and when the angels measured it they found the distance was shorter to his destination and were compelled to put his soul in the abode of the good.
The message in this story is don't underestimate the Mercy of Allah (SWT) ... when you have made the intention to change your ways - that is counted as a good deed as well ... In our core belief system - the position of the true believer is neither in a state where he fears Allah (SWT)'s Wrath so much that he falls in to despair nor trusts Allah (SWT)'s Mercy too much that he becomes complacent and takes the judgement of Allah (SWT) in his own hands by considering himself unaccountable ... We should be balanced by taking a position somewhere in between these two extremes.