I left my hometown 20 years ago because of some issues I had in the community. I have grown up and am ready to come back but I don't know if the community I am going back to is going to be receptive. See, I have been "on the run", and escaping from my problems but I am sick of it. I want to come back and I feel like the negativity and gossip wont affect me but bear in mind this is a relatively small community and gossip spreads fast. I still want to go back and my main reasoning to do so is because I do miss my hometown. I was raised there and the community and people are welcoming. Everywhere I have lived in the past 20 years has not felt like home. Even though I don't know many people in my hometown anymore, I still have a yearning to go back. I just hate running and escaping from my problems. I want to face them head on and not be a coward anymore.
Good luck! Stay strong. You already know what you may expect so be prepared to let the negativity you may come across slide and embrace any positive responses and stand your ground.
Idk I remember you saying you committed something sexually misdeviant that made you a pariah, I'd recommended you stay in your new city and forget your past life because you may never return to a normal life.
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Idk I remember you saying you committed something sexually misdeviant that made you a pariah, I’d recommended you stay in your new city and forget your past life because you may never return to a normal life.
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Yes that is true, but that was almost 25 years ago. I know sometimes things never change and people see you the way they last thought of you but I can’t keep running. My past always catches up to me. I realized even moving from coast to coast or country to country does not matter. If that means I can’t live a “normal” life then so be it. Its not like my life is any normal now. If this is how my life has to be then I accept and take every day as a gift.
I guess my dilemma is basically that, I ran away from my problems when all this happened 25 years ago. Now I am at a point where certain issues have arisen where I need to go back to my hometown. Also, I am tired of running and it hasn't helped me because my past issues, no matter how long ago and how much I have changed, have caught up to me. I am truly trying to start fresh in a city where my past haunts me and everyone may still see me the same. What can I do, not to change their opinions or blend in, but live a happy life. Running away never solves anything, it just makes it worse.
Why on earth would you give a flying chit about what anyone thinks? Do they pay your bills, what community are you talking about?