Gosh! It was such a weird day today. I found out that the shirt I had been looking for, for ages actually was taken by my cousin, I saw her wearing it today. I burnt my hand. I met my long lost cousin (who by the way is really hot) from ka-nay-duh. Then I found out I had the wrong time-table so I was at school drinking coffee and “choco chum” 3 hours earlier than required. I Bsed my way through the exam today. My maid is on leave for a month now. My tailor messed up this really nice and expensive velvet suit I had gotten. I bought a 450 rupee CD that didn’t even work in my CD Player and the guy at the shop wouldn’t give me a refund. Then my mom left for Phoenix today
Everything today seems to be going purposly wrong. I became so frustrated and yet didn’t do anything about it. I didn’t even ask that bitch why she was wearing my shirt. I just sat at the cafetaria and listened to “TOOL” over and over. I didn’t even study for my exam today. The system is really crappy here, students will only get point if they fill out tons of paper sheet, and teachers don’t look at what you write they look at how much you write. So today I wrote 20 sheets of paper in 2 hours, I have no idea what I wrote I just kept going and going. Only 3 questions and 20 paper sheets. Damn! I can’t feel my hand anymore. I just Bsed Bsed and some more. I didn’t even say anything to that shopguy for that stupid CD. I didn’t even put anything on my wrist for the burn, now my skin is all fudged up. I even paid off my tailor for messing up my clothes. I had 7 cups of coffee and my eyes are all red now. Yuck! It tasted like cow dung (I could just vomit) yet I kept drinking it.
I didn’t even sleep last night. My shoulders and arm ache because I was sewing up this big shadar like dupata. My left hand feels numb from all that writing I did today. My eyes are burning. My legs are worn out from all the running I did today, played some basket ball after those cups of coffee. I didn’t eat anything since yesterday and I still don’t feel hungry. And I MISS my mom terribly. I miss Arizona. I am mad. Really mad! She is there and I am here stuck with all these stupid people, I feel like such a stranger. I can’t breath. When I left her at the airport I wasn’t even crying. She will be back next year. But still I miss her. I just want to go back home.
Hey next year is just around the corner so she will be back soon inshallah.
Why didn't you go with her? Any particular reason? Why are you staying back?
Najim: LoL...yea burnol is really good but has that weird yellow color. MH will look like as if celebrating basant in december!
I KNOW just HOW difficult it is to live somewhere you hate. I was in Pakistan for 2 months without my family and GAWD, i used to punish myself by not eating i hate it that much…
And thrn my current university. Frigs! I HATE IT SO MUCH that i cry every single day, i can NOT wait for the day for it all to be OVER and everyything seems so f$$$ked up…
Smile You’re not the only one for who everything is a disaster right now
LM , I think you should try to sleep and hope you will feel better after you get up. happens so don’t worry and do not take that much cofee it is of corurse not good for you eat some.
May Allah give you composed and peaceful life Aameen:)
I hope you feel good soon.
Najim thanks for that burnol tip but I think Ima leave it like this. It already looks like its getting better :nahnah:
Roshnie sweetz by next year I mean like as in next year, she will be back next october or november. And for why I didn’t go gosh I could write a novel about that.
DD 2 months is nothing try living forever sighhhh. Anywayz I know Im not the only one with problems. Its just that today everything went so wrong. Everything was going in the opposite dirrection I wanted to spend time with mom but because of my stupid time table messup I only got to like spend an hour or 45 min at the airport.
Uff sleeps sounds good. Let me go get some pills and I shall knock myself out.
I hope you feel better soon b/c those twenty pages should really be worth the marks.
The more you pressurize yourself into thinking that you cannot adjust here, the worse it will be. Be optimistic.
An advice tho, if you don't think you can manage here, don't push yourself, it's of no use. Some of my friends couldn't 'survive' and have left already.
Anyways, I hope it all works out to your benefit.
PS-- cut down on the coffee and bust that salesman's nose. :p
everything will be fine…um,once u get used to it,
by the way…r u planning to live in Pakistan 4 the rest of ur life,without family,with new sets of rules,new environment,new ppl,new everything???if yes then…i wish u GOOD LUCK,hope it gets easy 4 u:hug:
n hope that burn gets better sis:)
n,hmmm,y did u go from arizona to Pakistan for studying???
Roshnie sweetz The mulvi thingi is an inside joke, Amigo would understand it well.
Hinna Dont stress yourself. I didn’ come here to study, family problems and stuff. Gosh ask my parents
DD Come save moi
X-comm Your right, I should push it, but you know what I dont care now. Hell! I dont even do anything anymore. I just dont go out anymore. I mean come on wouldn’t you be pissed off if some 50 year old uncle tried to pintch your butt and your right I should go bust his nose, idiot gave me the wrong CD
Kuri awww I lub you too. And no its not forever, though I am visiting Jersey and Arizona in summer to see my family.
hmmm…how long u gotta live their for n y??..alone i’d neva, even da thought of living alone fo studies o wuteva…juz makes me wana cry n go crazy…i can’t live widout me family…juz can’t…
hmmmmmmm…well all u can do is pray sis…so hope u have bettah days inshallah n hope u r happy…may Allah(Swt) bless u wid neva endin happiness n bless ;u wid da strength to face all dese hardships..inshallah n ameen sum ameen
lm-:( i'm sorry ur day went so bad. go get ur kameez back! i hope everything gets better. Dad offered to send me to Pakistan for med school, and i said noooo way! I love being desi, and i love visiting Pakistan, but i could not handle that. How'd the engagement situation go then?
i hate it that much…
You’re not the only one for who everything is a disaster right now 
i’d neva, even da thought of living alone fo studies o wuteva…juz makes me wana cry n go crazy…i can’t live widout me family…juz can’t…