last week i finished my last exam…and i hve 4 months off…hvent found a job yet but will do soon…inshallah…
anyway…i learned a valuable lesson and i didnt even need to leave the comfort of my home and didnt need to attend a lecture for it…i soooo stupid i just dnt knw why i didnt cme to this conclusion months ago…
mujhe pata hai kai yeh duniya matlabi hai…
but im upset and hurt on the fact that this week i realised smething soo true and in my face that i shud hve realised it …but didnt…God knws why …
wen ppl make friends with me…and then they use me for there own needs/matlab…watever they r…coz u can say oh they were an outsider…(smethin like that dnt knw another word for it at the moment)…it hurts…but not so much …
but wen u make friends within the family, or hve a real close f.ship/realtionship with sme1…and…ur own use u for their own matlab it kills…it hurts so bad that i dnt knw why i just hve no words at the moment to describe the feeling…
i must hve the word Stupid written across my face or smething…i make friends with my heart…Dil se…anyone who knws me will tell u…but sme that i called “a friend(s)” used their brains…used me for their own matlab and gave me a kick in the face…
im supposed to be enjoying my hols and this has been the 1st week and i this is wat i hve learnt…
a friend sed to me yday “Watever happens, happens for a reason…God must hve dne this for a reason” “One door closes and another one Opens” and i knw all of this but the pain of betrayal doesnt go away…
im supposed to also be ur “friend”…and if u cant tell me what happened then I dont see the point of discussing it here.
I tell u everything that happens with me and now it kinda hurts that u cant do the same in return. shouldnt I also be complaining about what kind of friend you are?
^^ impluse ji........the reason why i didnt tell u yday was coz i knw how happy u were y.day..last exam etc and chattin to u knw who.......and i thought that why spoil ur mood thats why i didnt tell u yday........
i wanted to ......but i just didnt want to spoil ur mood......dats why:(
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