So I was outside.. in the balcony - shivering and smoking at the same time.
I looked up and saw the dark sky and the stars - my imagination started running wild - I imagined a lot of things - Then the stream of thoughts drifted to GOD, creation, the universe, myself, etc etc etc.
Now suddenly I felt that someone from UP THERE was watching… Seriously :halo: I thought of old sayings and words of wisdom “HIS love for his creations is 70 x the love that a mother has for a child”
Oh my GOD
That somehow sparked a very very strange feeling inside me. And I seemed to be reciprocating the same - Feeling LOVE and EMOTIONS flowing outwards from me - for HIM - HE was a friend, protecter, provider - keeping an eye on me all the time - listening to me - Blessing me with soooo much - and at the same time LOVING me - a love that can not be measured - in simple layman’s lingo equal to the love of 70 mothers for their children - to say the least…
It brought tears to my eyes…
and I thought of all the times that I had disobeyed HIM …
and HE still continues to watch over me - treating me as a friend - and still HIS blessings keep showering on me day after day after day.
We humans are too tied up with our screwed up lives and stupid schedules
and sometimes I feel that my life is going totally waste ..
I dont know if I am fulfilling my duties to HIM … Probably NOT
and thats what totally frightened me for a while.
Although it did have a bright side when I felt VERY VERY STRONG
and felt as if I could depend on HIM for guidance and with HIM on my side, a protector and my ultimate Caretaker - there was nothing to worry about
