I had you once but I lost you twice.
I watch you from a distance and sulk in my own misery.
I wander if I am missed by you as well.
I bleed alone by my wounds but they will heal and my heart will not.
I cant help the way I feel but I can appaulogize for missing you.
Kill me please,
let me slip into the velvet night of death or else let me be torn apart in the agoy of indecision,
Either way my soul must be cleansed,
For its not only me Im hurting.
I am so confused, else I would not destroy that which I love for it is her too that Im hurting.
guys this one is for u 
