Re: lies - never be afraid of anything
his family came in the way of his happiness and that is something he will realize on the one hand he at least indicated clearly to me that he wanted to make this decision, but there was always this fluff of with parents and God's willingness.
he is made to be this reluctant obedient son.
and i did not want him to suffer and i tried my best, without doubting him until the end,
not to belittle him, but to help him, with all my heart, with all honesty at my end, even breaking the set in stone rules for women, that i do not regard as fair since it is a lif elong partner ship.
when there will be so many doubts, without getting into something how will one ever see the real strength or weakness of anything or any body?
he used to say, my parents would look for a daughter in law who can fight in the neighbor hood for the protection of her family -
so many lies.
his personality is totally subdued by his parents. and that is what i know for sure.
may he realize that i was and could be a source of strength for him, only if he could take a stand for his own self, if he truly wanted to be with me.
but, if he was a thief in his own heart then what goes around comes around.
it is his loss - because as two people, we both were alright, until a certain time, when he decided to be a sneak.
i asked for a confrontation and he could not even do that.
that shows how weak some men are and what a waste when they do not notice sincerity.
may he find peace in what will be lumped on him
he himself could and can look back and pick up what ever is left of the relationship, if he was honest and try coming back.
but if he did not soon enough, then at least i know that i did not back out and i tried all i could but it is his luck.
