hmm...
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hmm...!
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I thought you were gonna reply me for "that" mail?
^yes, I was…I haven’t had even time to read and see it properly. 
…I’ll reply tomorrow, inshallah…100% :k:
… nazar churauu insaan!!!
right!!.. meray kehne par hi reply karna tha… i knew that… tabhi mai nai 2 weeks tak dekha kae nahi kehti…
are yaar…last week I had this course on genetics…and i made a mistake…there were 2 courses prerequisite in order to do this one., and i hadn’t done either of them…so I didn’t understand anything AT ALL…and had to do overwork in the evenings and during the days…had to follow all lectures…
on top of that I had those problems with the ranking system…
hmm...
couldn't even post properly on GS......
ps hmm....:
ok DEstinee: u tell me, who is this EntityParadigm? u seem to know HER
now where'd u gone?
he told me that he wont come on gs anymore :(
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Aashi, you're not satisfied with such a long pm, or what i wrote in there as my "excuses" ?? emphasize...
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ur excuse was a long one.....must have taken u a long time to write it in words......
but guess what....it didnt work!.....
aashiii'
asshii.. kal mere dost ki behen ne suicide karne ki try ki.. neend ki golian 1 nahi 2 nahi 8 khagaye.. aur pillow ke neechay khat rakh dia ke Ammi abu mujhe maaf kardaina karke.. i knwo she likes someone... ab kia story huay mujhe nai pata chala..
aur larki ki ammi pakistan main hia america ka visa nahi mil raha.. abu chicago main hia.. wo khud 16 yrs ki larki hia.. behen ki shadi hogaye wo dallas main hia... sirf apnay bhia ke saath rehty hia.. ammi pakistan say anaya ke intizaar main hian.. aur bhia bhi class 8th main parta hia..
na osay apni izzat ki parwa na maan baap ki aur na hi os ne yeh bhi nahi socha ke suicide haraam hia Islam main...
aur os ne sirf apnay aprents ke liay hi nahi os larke ke naam bhi khat likhaa ke mujhe maaf kardiana jo os ke bhia ne parh kar phaar dia
os ke ghar walaon ko kuch nahi pata main hi wahid hoan jis ko sab kuch pata hia.. ab mere ghar walay mujhe hi blame karahay hian ke main os ki suicide ki reason hoan main agar ghar ke baroan ko os ki harkataon ka batadaity to wo control karlaitay.. ya mujeh bhaion ki sab ki batain sunni parh rahi hian.. mujhe wo larki kabhi bhi nahi pasand na hi main os say baat karti.. phir bhi mujeh danttay hian os ne wada kia tha ke kisi ko nahi batana aur ab pata chal gaya hia..
i feel bad.. ammi ab mujh par trust nahi karti mujhe kia pata koi larki aaj bhi khud khusi karsecty hia.. ab batao mera kia qasoor main ne aakhrii waqqt tak osay samjhaya ke os larke ka peecha choor do.. laikin woo... pata nahi osay kia hogay ahia.. :(
aaahhhh yaar peeps luv shuv mein aisa hi hota hei........mujeh sumujh nuhi aati....lurkiyan aise cheezoun mein kiyoun purti hien?....unhein aur kiya chahiye?...unke damagh suhi kiyoun nuhi hein?.......when i was born my dad was worried about me.....keh aik lurki howi hei and now its his humble duty to look after her and keep her safe and then give it to someone whom she belongs to etc...and he made it perfect clear to me keh if u like someone then tell us...tell ur parents they are ur best friend......they will help u out....they want the best for their kid......im amazed at their trianing towards me....and i thank him everyday.....keh he is not only strict but also understandable and has a reaosn for every damn thing.....
if i was in ur shoes i would soooooooo tell someone.....agur wo baat nuhi maanti and aik gulut raaste pe chul ruhi hei then get help......u thought u were doing the best for her and did u?....no u didnt....u failed in what u were doing....u should have told at least ur parents so they could help u out......
uuffff ye bohut buri baat howi and iss mein jitni izzut ka sawal hei wo bhi bhuttur tuk hei......aik lurki ko sirf aur sirf upni izzut and maan baap ka khiyaal hona chahiye...not any strangers.......
so is she ok now?...buch tau gaye na?......agur maan baap us ke paas nuhi hein sunjhane wale how do u expect the best from that girl?....agur uss koi sumjhane wala nuhi hei how would u expect her not to fall for bad things......
tumne jo kiya tumhare lehaaz se theek tha but being an adult now that u r agur situation haathoun se baahir niqul ruhi thei u should have told someone....ta ke aik gulut kaam se aik lurki bachai jaye and un ghur ki izzut bhi buchi ruhe.......
and sorry if im being harsh on u yaar Amber.....im emotionally disabled my self.....and when it comes to thing like these....im very against it.....
aashii soo true.. liakinn aashi.. agar tum mere dost ho to dostoan ke beech main hazaraon secret hotay hian.. wo ghalat raste par.. i dun know os ne muhabbat ki.. jo ke ghalat nahi laikin jis tarah aur jis larke say ki wo ghalat thi.. dekhoo hamain apni marzi say shadi karne ka haq hamaray mazhat ne dia hia.. dia hia na... aurr kabhi kabhaar dil par apne ikhtiaar nahi hota ke hum kia karhaya hian.. aur wo to 16 yrs ki bachi.. main ne os ki bari behen ne shadi ke pehlay(apni) haath joor kar samjhayaa ke plzz aisa na karo aur larka bhi jannay walaon main say tha. aunty ki dost ka baita... aur sochoooo main ne yeh tak kaha ke tumhain kuch nahi hoga laikin jab os ke ghar walaon ko pata chalay ga tu tumhari maan aur baap ki kitni bayzati hogi.. cuz larka osay pasand nahi karta yeahi pagal hia os ke peechay.... aur 2 weeks pehlay mere paas aay thi.. hazaaar waday karke gaye aayanda baat nahi karay gi... aur larka bhi os ke saath acha time pass karaha tha aashi.. aur yeh osay muhabbat samajhty rahi..
hum ne bohat samjhayaa nahi manii laikin main ne ghar walaon ko is laiy nahi bataya ke agar main bataty to wo aayanda koi bhi ghalat qadam uthaty aur mujh par say aitemaad uth chuka hota... wo os larke say milti thi.... and u dun know this manhooos cultureee... shaadi say pehlay yehan ki larkion ko chance milay to woo har ghalat kaam karlaity hian apnay lovers ke saath.. :( aur ab to os ke ghar walay bhi nahi hian.. wo kia pata milti ho... kia pata os ne bhi koi aisa ghalat kaam kia ho jis ki wajah say sharminda hokar suicide karni chahi..
loog najanay aisa kyon karte hian.. main apnay ghar walaon ko batatyyy to mere ghar waalay osay samajhatay nahi samajhty to ammi os ke abu ko batadaity.. jo ke kal ammi batanay wali thi main ne bohat mana kia to rook gayee.. os ke abuu heart patients.. yeh suntay to yehan aakar osay jaan say maar daitay ya khud ko kuch karlaitay...
isi liay main ne apnay ghar walaon ko nahi bataya main ne intizzar kia ke os ki ammi wapis america aay to main khud ya phir os ki bari behen ko bolaon ke wo onhain batadain.. aur agar mere ammi bataingi to onhoan dukh pohcnachay ga.. koi maan nahi bardaasht karay gi ke os ki baiti ki gahalt kaam koi aur on ko batayee.. wo hamaray rishtedaar nahi..family friends hian jaisay america aakar dosti huay.. isi liay main ne nahi bataya.. laikin ab mere ghar walay mujeh kyon blame karahay hian...
yeh nahi poori family main is ke baray main ghalat batain horahi hian ke is ne kyon suicide ki hogi.. loog false assumptions lagarahay hian.. sochoo on ke ghar walaon par kia ghuzar rahi hogi.. main ne isi liay os ke raaz chupaye takay badnami na ho..
yeh america hai kehtay hian ke koi ksii ke mamle main nahi bolta jabke its not true.. sab bolte hian aik dosray ki too main rehtay hian.. bas bahar kuch show nahi karte.. Allah ne hi kaha hia ne ke aap kisi ke raaz chupao Allah aap ka raaz chupaye ga.. ab main ammi ko bata kar sahi kia ke nahi.. mujhe nahi maloom.. laikin my parents are blaming me for everything..
aur ab os ke abu ko pat ahia ke main sab baat janty haon.. wo apni baiti ko theek hotay hi bohat dantaingay.. aur naam mera aay ga aur wo larki aisi hia ke osay jo bura laghta hia wo dair nahi lagaty os ki burai karne main dosraon ke samnay... wo mere bhi burai karay gi.. mere batain bhi osay jo pata hia batayee gi..
aur wo theek nahi hia. os ke nana aakar lai gaye hian osay.. abhi tak bayhoosh pari hai.. but doctor said she is out of danger... emergency main lai kar nahi gaye kyonke police case ban jata :(
hmmm......that's sad