Just 5 years to live

Re: Just 5 years to live

Well to be honest, there is no such thing as a heart disease that puts a timeframe before death… but if the doctor were to tell me something like I have cancer and its spread too much and I probably wont make it, then yes fiance or no fiance, I would just leave him. Very very tough thing to do, especially when you’re already sick and dying, but if you love the person you want whats best for him. If he marries you, spends all these glorious moments with you, only to die every second afterward thinking that each day is one day closer to your dying date, well then thats not a life that I want him to have. Its better to sacrifice that than to leave him all alone hurting and lost without you when you finally do depart. Knowing myself as well, it would probably make me weaker also just to see him everyday and know that our time is much shorter than what I had expected or wanted. It would kill me and I think i would fare better without him. I couldnt see him suffer because of me… and I couldnt continue being with him knowing that its all gonna end very soon. Thats just the way I am though.

Its a sad thing, and its not something I ever wanna have to really sit down and think about. But I understand the basis of your question… these kinda things do happen. :hinna: