I've been unfriendly and can't make it up now...

You deleted your post because you were being mean? Why?! In this case, I deserve that. And besides, my life is nowadays such, that I have to try to get used to people being mean to me while I have done none of the things they generally accuse me of.

I need people to be mean to me, I really need to get used to that. That will be my life now anyway. It's been my life the past few years and I often said nothing back, I always kept laughing and smiling.

Well, I"m going to continue to do that. Say almost nothing back and keep smiling and laughing at everything and just try to be a better person myself by learning more about life. We never stop learning about life, the learning process continues until we die. No matter how much someone studies or how old someone gets, there is always something to learn in life.