I need to go away
leave no clues
life turned away
broken, dishearted
treated like a retard
can you feel what I do?
intoxication makes me
think I’m flyin’ high
but when I come back
I see myself fallin’
wrong dreams
wrong steps
I thought I do right
culture made me a stranger
gettin’ mad, lonely ajnabi
where are you roamin’
I’ve been raised wrong
that is why I’m sh’t
that is why I feel sh’t
but these people won’t understand
confusion following me
like a fellow of old days
how much did I miss you
broken inside
I’m sick to pretend
everything is fine
my life feels like
I took too much
of that coca line
dollars runnin’
money is burnin’
money is on everyones lips
Money is Honey
without the money
she won’t be my honey
there is no love and
my friends won’t take my side
life would f’ck me
but what is life?
something whichs stabs
your back with a knife
you see it comin’
but can do nothing
I’m burnin’, everything is burnin’
on the way to perfection
my life took another turnin’
been raised by depression
that is why my mind thinks negative
whatever, nothing is positive
tension, depression, tension, depression
this is what my eyes see all the time
this is what my mind feels all the time
so many battles in life
feelin' like a soldier
kill or get killed
the slogan of this world
we got today
I want to be a bird
have wings, fly away
and feel the freedom
cause' I can't take this sh't
so many times I think 'bout to quit
I got these suicidal thoughts
deep in my mind
can't forget about it
the light of my eyes
taken away
now running blind
thru this place
called World
called Hell
If I could decide
I'd suicide
smokin' bomb ass weed
the smile is bright
for awhile I see some light
this sh't is tight
born as a genius
dyin' as a looser
original copy of depression
fellow of tension
my situtation is crucial
everytime I can pull
the trigger, THE END
my wish was to rise
but in this crisis
no one rises
Mamy why do I have
these suicidal thoughts
and why do I see
these bullets flyin' at me
I know why
I know why
but won't tell...
A Life I couldn't understand
gone too far
wanted too much
now you see this scar
Locked in a cage
anger & rage
this is what I got left
I was lookin' at life
with a bright smile
but in the night
it was just another dream
it was just another disappointment
We are sad kids
the me and the them
standing' at the edge of darkness
and nobody could care about us
A Life I couldn't understand
happened too much
went astray too much
gone too far
now you see this scar
set me apart...
Dark is this time
feelin' like having
committed too many crimes
now gettin' punished
now gettin' mentally raped
I'm very far away from a perfect life
I'm very far away from peace of mind
I wanna leave
forget all what seemed to be real
never ever feel this pain again
never ever taste this sh't again
black is the night
dark my memories
people have so many stories
on their lips
but no one listens
no one cares
please hear me for awhile
please listen what I need to tell
in your eyes I fell
and I don't know why
forgive me
maybe I was the one wrong
your sad words so strong
happiness
sorrounded by darkness
loneliness sorrounded by
hopelessness
sadness sorrounded by
depression
I got this tension
killing me
I don't feel good
I feel ill deep in my mind
I wish to become blind
I wish to close the eyes of my soul
so I can stay Numb
better for me, better for you
got married to the unknown
but feeling the known
I don't see you
where are you?
love hurts
thinkin' about you breaks
loneliness kills
I don't feel you
where are you?
only god knows
what I have in my heart
what am I swimming towards
is it you or just another isle of the damned
where are you
I don't feel you
I don't feel you
I'm so numb
once again
why does it hurt?
tell me please
is there any cure
for this disease
I don't feel you
I don't see you
I wish I could, yeah I do
I wish I could feel you
could see you
but I'm tied on a rope
which is burning me
and words of pain
leave my mind towards
every single paper
there is nothing I can do
nothing I can do
think, think, think
share, share, share
my pain with the pen
with the pen and paper
leaving me speechless
leaving me numb
I don't feel you
I don't feel you
where are you?
Disappear Disappear
I Disappear I Disappear
Yeahh Yeahh Yeahhhhhhhh
Never Reappear, Never Reappear
In This Bloody World
I Suffer, I Suffer
Yeahh Yeahhh, Here We're Goin
Will You Bury Me When I Ask For
Or Shall I Disappear,
Shall I Disappear?
I Disappear, I Disappear
Cuz' I Suffer, I Suffer
This Pain Is Fillin' Me
This Pain Is Killin' Me
I Need To Disappear
Cuz I Suffer, I Suffer
Never Reappear, Never Reappear
There Is No Mercy, Only Pain
There Is No Mercy, Only Hate
Will You Please Bury Me When I Ask
Yeah Yeah, Here I Go Now
Forever Disappear, Disappear
Never Reappear, Never Reappear
Never Show You A Sign Of My Existence
You Burried Me, I Need To Go
I Disappear, I Disappear
I Thought I'm Happy Inside
but in real I was Killed
Long Time Before
By My Foe, By My Foe
Do You Wanna Know Him?
Twists Your Mind
This Is What He Does
You Feel Like Fyin' High
but in real you're fallin'
The Name Of My Foe Is Love
I Need To Escape, I Need To Disappear
Please Bury The Memories When I'm Gone
I Disappear, I Disappear
Never Reappear, Never Reappear
Just Disappear...
can't you just leave me
throw me away, throw me
forget all what happened
please go, cuz I'm ready to go
there is no way out
it has to happen, whatever comes
it is destined, it is destined
let me go, please, please
beggin' on my knees, please
Momma I have these suicidial thoughts
this desire is bigger than life
Thug Life, I wish I could HUGLIFE
Hug Life, I wish I could Hug Life
How long will you wait for me?
How long will you stay for me?
How long will you pay for me?
How long will you wait for me, tell me?
I'm just waitin', waitin' to be alone
putting that heavy stone on my heart
please don't look so disheart
I played all my cards
now I got these suicidal thougts
lines I never should have crossed