Sister … do what is in your capability … if you choose to use contraception - dislike it in the heart … plan but know that Allah (SWT) is the Best of Planners … know that any plan you make things can go off plan and if they do then let them happen with full peace of heart … Allah (SWT) does not burden you with things beyond your capability. And constantly ask forgiveness for your inefficiencies … At least this is what we try to do …