At times it feels like i have it together but at times I am completely lost, i cant even see tomorrow. I sleep crying, i wake up crying, i pray crying. I cant bear to think that in a week my father wont be with us. That this ramadan we will have to do it without him and my brother. That this eid he wont be with is, maybe even the next eid. He was my rock, i relied on him for everything. After he is gone, I will probably be taking care of things and I do not know how. I cant even handle myself let alone take care of my mother and everything else while working. Its so difficult just to wake up in the morning and face another day, countdown till he leaves. And sleep knowing there will be another tough day to go through. Everyone thinks i am really strong but my hearts like contantly breaking, i can even feel a physical pain. I dont know what to do. I dont feel like talking to people about it, I cant. I have been ignoring everyone. I dont know how to get out of it, but I need to. I guess the first step is to realize there is somethng wrong. I pray, i try to do extra nafl, extra dua but i just cant get the strength i need. I just burst out over little things every few minutes. I haev thought about talking to people going through the same thing as me but cant find anyone because I cant tell them what I am going through.
That's really sad to hear. I don't know about your situation but I can relate to you in a way cos I myself have passed through an extremely depressing state, when you just can't see tomorrow-completely hopeless. Though mine were other reasons. But I pray from the core of my heart may Allah swt gives you strength, may He bless you with the gifts of sabr and shukr and may He double the reward of patience. May you be showered with His mercy. May Allah swt instill contentment in your heart.
Try to gain strength through salat and tilawat. Also Ramadan is coming up, inshaAllah it'll be a source of strength for all of us. Also one thing which keeps me going is, I think this duniya is eventually going to end, we are not going to live here always and so will be the problems difficulties of this life. and our stay here is way too short comparatively. Also when I think of people who are in worst conditions. I don't know if I made sense or no but can do just one thing- dua. iA.
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i pray that Allah sees you through all of this, and remember we all get 'tested' - maybe this is your test. Beieve in Allah and insha-allah you will feel better.
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I’ve been through the same thing, where you can’t breathe, you can physically feel the pain, you can’t sleep, or eat. I understand your emotions, even though I may not understand your circumstances. inshAllah you’ll get through it, I’ll keep you in my prayers, and Allah (SWT) will help you get through this. Stay strong 
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I’ll keep you in my prayers 
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May Allah swt help you and protect you and your family. Ameen 
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Aww I'm so sorry to hear this, may allah give you and your family the strength to get through this.
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Sorry to hear you're going through rough times. I hope whatever it is you're going through resolves itself or that you find the courage and strength in you to just face it and do the best you possibly can. I wish you happiness and you'll be in my prayers. I know how it feels, I lost my father last month, and it just seems so unfair that I should have to spend the rest of my life knowing that he could never physically be here for me anymore. I miss him so much and its sickening also to know that family celebrations and Eids and birthdays will always have the most special person in my life missing.
May Allah bless you and give you strength to fight with your problems.
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I wish you good luck!! And I'll pray for you!!
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May Allah bless you and give you strength to fight with your problems.
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May Allah s.w.t make things easy for you and your family:flower1:
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Bless you Phat... I am so glad that you are praying, I know it is still hard but only ALLAH will help you through this difficult situation
Just keep praying, breakdown if you have do on the janamaz leikan keep praying that ALLAH does what is best for you and your family
Hugz
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May Allah swt help you with everything and give you the patience and strength to do whatever you need to, Ameen.
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May Allah (swt) make things easier for u and ur family.I ve been through the same depressing phase....but no matter what keep faith in ALLAH. INSHALLAH things will be fine soon.After every difficulty there is happiness.
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May Allah (SWT) make things easier for you.. remember, Allah does not burden His believers.. so if you want any direction just have have hope in Allah as He is the almighty.
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2:286 (Asad) God does not burden any human being with more than he is well able to bear: in his favour shall be whatever good he does, and against him whatever evil he does. O our Sustainer! Take us not to task if we forget or unwittingly do wrong! "O our Sustainer! Lay not upon us a burden such as Thou didst lay upon those who lived before us! [278] O our Sustainer! Make us not bear burdens which we have no strength to bear! "And efface Thou our sins, and grant us forgiveness, and bestow Thy mercy upon us! Thou art our Lord Supreme: succour us, then, against people who deny the truth!"
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65:7 (Asad) [In all these respects,] let him who has ample means spend in accordance with [15] his amplitude; and let him whose means of subsistence are scanty spend in accordance with what God has given him: God does not burden any human being with more than He has given him - [and it may well be that] God will grant, after hardship, ease.
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Whatever the hardship you are going through, make sure you seek refuge in Allah...
May Allah make it easy for you and your family. Ramadan is coming and inshaAllah that is the month where no dua is unanswered, so please keep making those duas..
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Bless ya! All you can do is ask Allah (swt) to give you inner peace, he is the only that will help you get through this tough time. Inshallah I hope everything works out for and just remember Allah (swt) only tests the people he loves.
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there comes a time in most ppl's lives when their parent(s) leave them. This I believe is one of the most difficult test Allah (swt) has given us. **So please spend as much time with your father and tell him how much you love him, if he is not awake, he can still hear you. **There are 5 stages of grief: denial and isolation, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance. It is normal for you to isolate yourself from others. Continue reciting Allah's (SWT) name "Al-Sabur"... InshAllah I will pray for you and your family.
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Sister, ALLAH(SWT)app ko iss mushkil waqt mein se nikaalney mein madad dey aur app ki tamam takleefein aur pareshaaniyaan dour farmaye(ameen)...mein app ko aur app ki family ko duaa-oon mein yaad rakhoon gi.INSHALLAH!
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May ALLAH gives you sabar,be strong...