ok , DONT WORRY we are not judging you. no one is perfect here.
firstly, pray to god. i suggest you read namaz and pray for guidance.
dont be suicidal, its not jsut against islam but its a cowards way out. if you want to change, you need to live for that. you need to pray you need to seek guidance. i will pray for you. bt seriously, the fact that you recognise this as something you dont think is right, is a start. pray my friend, please pray and a path will follow. remember you always have a choice. think carefully and be brave.
as faari said, i totally agree, also its not just a cultural barrier but a relgious one too.
can i ask how old you are and whether you have had this feelings for long...have you eve rhad a gf..or liked a girl?
I'm 20, and I have had these feelings for as long as I can remember. No, I have never had a gf or liked a girl, girls just don't interest me in that way (unfortunately).