Re: I'm gay....what do I do?
It must be really difficult for you. Im sorry that your in such a dilemma where you feel you cant be yourself due to cultural barriers. If you know what the quran has to say about homosexuality you will understand that you wont be applauded for it by many others who are muslim and pakistani (Im not judging you only allah can judge). Are your family aware of your preferences, as you did mention that they know your not interested in girls
Contemplating suicide is showing ingratitude to your lord for all the blessings he has given you, i urge you to forget the idea, you'll only be under the wrath of allah if you do so. And i agree, marrying a girl is totaly unfair and you would marry her under false pretences and you shouldnt cause an innocent girl to suffer for the rest of her life.
I pray that allah gives you the strength to see you through ur testing times and to strengthen your imaan :)