Re: If you Die
Peace All
Now I'm not sure whether I should be angry or concerned. I think I should be concerned. Why should I be angry? Well because Hareem01 has made me promise that I will not get married if she died. I said, "OK", but then she said "That means you want me to die" but if I said "no" then she would say that "that means you want to get married again".
The situation as it stands today is that I have made a promise not to get married again, in which case May Allah (SWT) keep my wife alive for a long time. However, I am more concerned than angry. The reason why I am concerned is that I think my wife is casting on me what she herself is feeling. I used to be a lot fitter but I have stopped exercising for two years now and she keeps me at a distance. I thought it might be because she doesn't want any more children, but now I am sure that she finds my loss of physique repulsive. I need to start doing some exercise again. In fact I have started to do some midsection exercises already. I can't have my missus losing interest in me. That will not do!
I have told my wife that I will become spiritual and find a way to avoid the appetitive aspects of my human nature, without actually getting myself castrated, that will not do either, Islam forbids it, I guess.
I'll find a way to support my kids from home, like write novels and publish them, inshaAllah I intend to do this anyway. I would rather my wife decide to stick around rather than going to the next world ... May Allah (SWT) protect her. Now I need to get working on how make myself more attractive ... See ya ... !!!