I feel like such an idiot now. Please no harsh fatwas or anything against me.
Thing is that i began wearing hijab about a month ago. The urge came to me suddenly, and I started wearing it after two weeks of deliberation, whereas i’ve friends who’ve been considering it for over a year and still can’t bring themselves to do it. THe original plan was for me to start wearing it nxt February when the new school term began, but I didnt’ want to wait that long. I figured, “if i wasn’t afraid of wearing a miniskirt to school, why am I afraid of this?”. I couldnt’ understand why if they wanted to do it why don’t they? but now i do understand, and i honestly wish i was still ignorant of that feeling. coz now i dont’ want to.
I liked wearing it in the beginning. But now, as suddenly as the urge came to wear it, im being overcome wit the urge to take it off, and i don’t know why. Everyone’s asked “is it for good” and i said “i hope so.” It’s all stupid little petty reasons..my thirty chins stick out..i look and feel ugly in it…it’s summer and its hot and i cant stand having something on my neck…i cant turn my head properly..im not gona be able to go to the gym wearing it…
i feel like isht now …i wana cry for being so stupid and impulsive.
Hmmm. Hmmmmmmm. Don;t know what to say.Give it some time. Speak to girls who already wear it and see if the can advise u on how to overcome the issues u r experiencing.
Sara first of all your decision to wear it, then take it off was rather suddent.Hijab isnt something to play with - well thats my opinion of it.If you truly believe in your heart that you want to wear it, then its all good.If it was a momentary urge to wear it, then take it off…well then I dont think you really wanted to wear it that badly in the first place.This isnt a bad thing, most important is whats in the heart.However, where hijab is concerned…I dont think its something you can wear and take off when some little thing goes wrong with it.
I wear the hijab, and Alhamdulillah I have never considered taking it off.Its a part of me and always will be.Yes its summer, but you can get hijabs that are not transparent yet the material is good enough for summer.As far as your chins…there are many ways of wearing the hijab.Maybe you should get one that makes you feel 'beautiful.'I do agree with you that sometimes we need to look good to feel comfortable, but maybe you think you dont look pretty wearing the hijab, because you’re so used to not wearing it.I know many many girls who take gym (all girls mostly) and yet they keep the hijab on.You can do anything you like while wearing the hijab, well maybe not swim.But anyway just wanted to tell you that such decisions dont make you a bad person…it just depends how hard you try to stick with what you believe in.
Why did you start wearing it? :-) Ask yourself this question again and if you are not convinced then don’t pressure yourself unnecessarily. It is obviously a bigger commitment than you thought. There is a reason why your friends are still ‘considering’ it and didn’t go ahead with it yet. There is a commitment to God and there is some obligations towards the society you are representing as well. It is time to grow up I guess.
I've felt the similar way at many points in my life. Perhaps you need to ask yourself why you are wearing the hijab in the first place? For religion, yourself or others? Relax and think about these issues.
I guess its a huge change and it takes time before its really becomes an essential part of you. Like in my case I started wearing the hijab almost an year ago.. I just couldn't bear all the constant nagging by everyone around me, so I just had to wear it... and to be honest I still don't wear it regularly.. but yea I've become more cautious about the whole Hijab issue now.
MQ ur rite, it isn't something to play around with and i hate that i've done that. u kno while i was considering it for those two weeks, i was afraid that this feeling was gonna go away as quickly as it came.....and well, lo and behold...
fayz, ive been asked so many times and i can't think of anything but "i wanted to....i guess coz i felt that i could finally put my past behind me (coz that's always been difficult for me) and concentrate on being a good Muslim... i wanted to show the whole world how i felt, that i'm proud to be Muslim and wearing a scarf seemed the perfect way.....my mother brought up a really good point...wearing hijab doesnt automatically make me a better Muslim than some...i shud work on the most important things first, i.e., reading quran, reading namaz, keeping my thoughts and actions clean and being a good person, eating halaal etc.
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I've felt the similar way at many points in my life. Perhaps you need to ask yourself why you are wearing the hijab in the first place? For religion, yourself or others? Relax and think about these issues.
I guess its a huge change and it takes time before its really becomes an essential part of you. Like in my case I started wearing the hijab almost an year ago.. I just couldn't bear all the constant nagging by everyone around me, so I just had to wear it... and to be honest I still don't wear it regularly.. but yea I've become more cautious about the whole Hijab issue now.
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yah jiaa...nobody nagged me about it...there were no mean looks as to why i'm not doing it...my parents are very religious mashallah: my mom wears the whole thing and my dad's done hajj etc etc, but they never mentioned to me that i should wear hijab, just dress modestly. there are some days im totally comfortable wiht it, and other days, i want to rip it off and just scream.
hmmm... sara, i wont tell u what to do, thats ur own decision, but from ur posts i did gather that when u did not wear hijab there were days when u did wana wear it and and now that u do wear hijab there r days when u dont wana wear it. if u leave it now then u might look back n think hey i wish i did continue wearing it. or no?
i think as a human being u will never be satisfied forever. i mean its a given that there will be times u will feel unsatisfied abt ur decision, any decision, no matter what u decide. the extent to which we question ourselves abt a certain decision depends on how seriously v took it, the degree of commitment v intended to put into it, n how important that issue was/is for us and how much patience we have. it takes patience but sometimes once we make an important decision we just have to tell ourselves, for our own good, not to question that decision again, ever again, otherwise v can become miserable...
