I am not looking for anyone to say “I am sorry” but only to have folks here reflect on what I am about to share.
I am male of very very good health. Working out (yes I have a six pack and cuts), playing sports, running regularly are a part of my exercise regiment. I tend to stay away from everything that can have potential bad effects which includes things like red meat, however, I do smoke occasionally when with one very close friend.
A few days ago I started showing some symptoms of a slight cold and then several days later chest pain developed. No, nothing directly at the heard but only around it. Gradually it became worse where I could not breath and was constantly coughing. My parents insisted that I go to the hospital but received only hesitation from me as I hate hospitals. Finally I relented and decided to pay those doctors a visit.
Very fast forward…I found myself hooked up to several tubes and an EKG. Technicians took some xrays which did not come back “negative” but “inconclusive” for well as the same for blood work. The local doctor then came to me and told me she had some bad news: “your symptoms and results do not match. every medicine we’ve given you to relieve such symptoms have not even come close to having an effect. Mr. … based on the data available I think you might either have cancer or a clot near your heart which if not treated immediately will prove fatal. However, we’ll next take you to have a CAT scan followed by an MRI.”
I lack the skill to put my feelings into words.
Very fast forward again. I neither have cancer nor a clot but only slight case of pneumonia which can be easily treated.
Now here is the point: coming face to face with your mortality is not easy. I am proud to say that I am a hafiz-ul-Quran, never miss a prayer, do not date, (I’ve done bad things but its been years now), I’ve performed several umrahs since, I’ve kept a nice beard, and yet I found myself not quite prepared to meet my maker. Allah forgives all sins and in my heart, and for a long time now, i’ve had this feeling that Allah has heard my prayers. But after this episode and although I still have the feeling that All Mighty has forgiven me, I am not sure I can face him.
There are certain things I want to achieve before I die. One of the most important things for me is to adopt an orphan. This is probably my number one priority, my wife has said she will support and help me when I actually get round to adopting an orphan...
If I achieve this goal (Inshallah) I will feel that my mission has been accomplished and I will die peacefully without any fear.
I guess it's whether you feel You have achieved what you wanted to achieve from life. If you have there is no fear, if you havent then maybe this brings about fear and hence your not ready....
Wow.. this is hard... I think if you have really asked Allah for forgiveness with all your heart and if your really sorry.. then everything will be fine.. Allah know everything.. you know how people say that Allah needs good people too.. and dont forget that Allah does everything for a reason.
What is the significance of these dates in your signature
Marney se pehley ye tu batatey jao
oh and Happy dying
Most of the civilians are never ready for death. But most of the soldiers in battlefield are. Possible reasons; motivation, pride, action etc
**" **You died on a Saturday morning. And I had you placed here under our tree. And I had that house of your father’s bulldozed to the ground. Momma always said dyin’ was a part of life. I sure wish it wasn’t. Little Forrest, he’s doing just fine. About to start school again soon. I make his breakfast, lunch, and dinner every day. I make sure he combs his hair and brushes his teeth every day. Teaching him how to play ping-pong. He’s really good. We fish a lot. And every night, we read a book. He’s so smart, Jenny. You’d be so proud of him. I am. He, uh, wrote a letter, and he says I can’t read it. I’m not supposed to, so I’ll just leave it here for you. Jenny, I don’t know if Momma was right or if, if it’s Lieutenant Dan. I don’t know if we each have a destiny, or if we’re all just floating around accidental-like on a breeze, but I, I think maybe it’s both. Maybe both is happening at the same time. I miss you, Jenny. If there’s anything you need, I won’t be far away"
Very nice post, must hv taken some courage to put it all there. My mom went thru a similar experience, however, hers was actually a cancer. They came to know it was in initial stages and Alhumdulillah, she was able to live healthy life.
What I don't understand is, how could that doctor tell you abt possible cancer & stroke, when he/she hadn't ruled out simpler things such as pneumonia? Yes, in chest pain stroke is investigated first but cancer seems far fetched to me, esp. seems harsh when u tell the patient abt it.
Good to hear masha’allah that you are ok and nothing seriously wrong with ya :k:
I think its a good attitude to have that makes you think that you are still not ready to meet or face your mighty. It keeps on you on track. We all have that fear in our hearts and believe me this fear keeps us going :k:
Ok now go sue that doctarni and buy urself a Beemer
It's surprising the doctor didn't diagnose the pnemonia first. You shouldn't have had that cancer scare because a doctor said it could be possible. Was it a GP? Glad you're ok. If you think that things happen for a reason, maybe this is a reality check again. To reassess your life and remain in fear of God's Will.
She did mention that it could be a slight case of pneumonia for which medication was provided but none worked. Then several other medicine were also added and again nothing. That is when doctor gave me the bad news.
Yeah but no matter how much you pray and ask for forgiveness and are satisfied when He says He is All Forgiving, will you still be able to face him? How many times have you studies for a test with complete confident that an A can and will be earned but there is always a hesitation or fear lurking in the shadows.
Actually she was very nice. When I owned up to the fact that needles scare the crap out of me, she offered her hand while the nurse drew blood. No I didn’t take it. And thats because I was covering my eyes.
And thats because I was covering my eyes.