i want to stop dreaming...

i was just coming here to post this as the probable cause but seems like you already know.

stay away from the wedding section, you’ll feel much better for it. as you say in a later post, you’re not really like this, it won’t be hard to get back to your normal self. occupy your mind elsewhere.

and when you find the person that’s right for you, everything else will just be ‘stuff’, you can live happily without it.