Then go to your local masjid and find the active ladies in the community who everyone respects and trusts.
and we might not like what the scholars say (same knowledge you’re confused about) but it doesn’t mean they’re jahil and evil… I mean you go to a science professor to learn science, same way to learn deen, you go to someone with knowledge, respect, humility; scholars. Listen to Shaykh Zaid Shakir, Hamza Yusuf, Shuaib Webb. all reverts who are very knowledgeable. I’m sure there are some alims in you area as well.