I don’t know how to express but I feel I have been missing my university in Lahore too much. I had a lot of friends and everyone scattered all around the globe. Where I have extreemly good memories I have extreemly painful memories strong enough to make me repell back. My dearest friends broke my trust. Sometimes I think I should meet people but then again I hold myself back.
I have really developed a strong thinking not to become close to anyone now. I am in a strange situation. It seems to me nobody speaks the truth and everybody meets with you for a reason…
You will experience setbacks and that’s just life. Become more discriminating when it comes to making friends. It takes time to develop this skill but it’s worth developing.
Regarding your old back-stabbing friends, move on. Forget them. Life is too short. Make new better friends.
Well, one thing I developed is that now I am really slow in making friends. It may take even a year for someone to come close enough to me to become my friend.
About the old friends, they just enter in my thought process when ever I think about the good days of the university. I think you'd agree, we cannot forget anything. One poet once said....
Yaad-e-Maazi azaab hai ya rab
Cheen ley mujh seh haafza mera
THen you'd also agree that scar remains even though the identity of the weapon may not be possible..............
Lahore, since starting college, i’ve gone thru many different friends… ive a weird dilemma with the whole friend thing… i get close really quickly and then … pata nahi
Its hard to explain.... buss my feelings towards them change... i never had friends growing up, maybe thas why its hard to keep them after sharing so much.... samajh nahi ati..
and someone said i look like a ammi with 10 baccha… 
