No, I mean haram.. We lived on haram burgers, steaks etc., that’s how seriously my parents took religion then suddenly my mum started wearing hijab, reading the Qur’an and everything changed..
She knows I eat haram now and again but she doesn’t really allow it in the house.. if my dad buys a meal that’s not halal he gets 
I’m like u, I do try and stick to halal but I don’t have the willpower to keep it up 100% 