i hate this ******* process

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Re: i hate this ******* process

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i know this is generally a happy subforum, but as this is the wedding section, i suppose i’m supposed to post here

i’ve barely begun this stupid rishta process that is so NOT me and i’m trying to give it a chance but already i’m hating it so much

and AGHHHHH i’m so angry right now i can’t even get out what i want to say exactly but i am not happy

but being that it’s apparently not gonna happen any other way because my life is the same damn thing here in small town usa with the same damn thing day in day out and no likely exit until i’m married, which is ironic in itself, i don’t have a choice but to do it this way

i’m so sick of being told how to impress these imaginary potential people that might come along that i don’t really care about anyway

i’m not like other desi girls and i’m not about to change that to impress some random auntie looking for a supermodel doctor for their less than average son

i hate the way my mother makes me feel like i’m such a hard sell when i don’t think there is anything wrong with my personality

i know i’m being negative and judgemental but i don’t care, i’m angry and frustrated and this is my thread

i’m also about to cry

i wish i could go out in the world and meet someone in a way that works for me, b/c i really don’t see this happening

and before someone tells me to go do that then, you haven’t met my parents

You can end this process right here. I am available and looking.:o