I gave badwa

[Bobby1]

Re: I gave badwa

@preciousheera

Hi all, it’s been a while but I’ve gone through so much that I haven’t had much time to post anything.
So, 7 months back my mum called me (or did I call her?) anyway, the phone conversation quickly went from normal chit chat to full blown argument.
We was arguing over my brothers wife. I haven’t met her nor was I invited to the wedding (as I’ve been disowned publicly by my family for leaving them at 17 due to there constant physical abuse) anyway… mum was saying how her daughter in law is so good blah blah blah, basically trying to make me jelouse and it sadly worked.
The argument continued and hurtful words were exchanged by both parties and then she REALY went and said something truly hurtful, she said "I use to have a daughter but she is dead now (referring to me) but now I have replaced her with a new and better, prettier and loyal girl (referring to my brothers wife.) this made me SO upset that I started crying I was crying so much that I felt like I was hyperventilating, I couldn’t breath and i could she all black in front of my eyes. After a while I took a few deep breaths and became a bit “normal” but I was so hurt and still crying. My mum carried on cursing and shouting through out my crying and then I did something I have never done before, I gave a badwa.

Proper badwa, it came deep from my heart.

I wished Allah give her tremendous pain and sorrow, and that here health gets worse and worse until she realise what she has done to me, I wished upon her all the pain that I went through in my youth to come to her but 10 times worse. I wished on her that her angel daughter in law ruins her home and take away her only son.

2 months after that phone call my dad calls me out of the blue, he tells me mum has breast cancer.
Another month after that she got blood poising.
The they found a tumour in her head.
She is in contact with me now, and talks to me very politely. I just called her this morning and she is recovering from an operation she had last week to remove the tumour. She told me the op went well but now she has found out she has hernia, this needs to be removed to.
She also has a drip in her arm due to recurring swelling.
Her angel daughter in law demand my brother to move. They don’t live there no more, brother doesn’t come to visit much either.

I feel guilty my badwa has come to life and I am a little surprised by this.
Is badwa true and can you revers it? I did say in the badwa that she should get more and more ill until she realise her mistake. Maybe she is keeping in contact with me as she too wants the badwa to stop.

Can a badwa be stopped?

I dont believe in badawaas, if you talk to the doctors they will tell you that she was probably suffering from cancer long before you had the interaction with her, there is lifestyle, there is food, there are carcinogenics and there is stress and toxic environment and also genetics which play a role in all this stuff. manipulative and abusive parenting never ends well. I want to be loved when I am old and hence I manage my behavior and treat my kids with love and nurturing and respect their wishes. You have gone thru enough and please don’t blame yourself for this tragedy, we want our parents to be healthy and live forever but we all get old and sick.

My family and her family used to threaten me with badawaas and i used to tell them go to town and do it to your hearts content.

I wonder if all of us gave Donald or Israel a badawaa and they will be inflicted by a calamity?