i accept i am wrong but it doesn't help

[baynishan]

@My_SeCrEt

What your mother did wasn’t right. Parents do things which we’ll never understand but you must forgive her. Everyone makes mistakes. Also, you’re right, Allah has different plans for everyone. Getting married isn’t the only thing in this world. I honestly thought for a long time that it was. But, there is so much to life. Love yourself and surround yourself with things that make you happy. Try new things, do what you’ve always wanted. Don’t be jealous of anyone, wish the best for them because happiness truly lies in seeing others happy as well. When it’s your turn, Allah will find you someone that truly loves you and thinks your beautiful, and inshAllah that’s when you’ll see yourself through his eyes. I honestly wish you well.

i don’t have anything against her in my heart anymore. but i still feel bad about losing my childhood.
and just because i get jealous of my friends doesn’t mean i want bad for them, sometimes when i feel jealous i ask my self would i be happy if they don’t have what is making me jealous and ALHAMDULILAH i never wish bad for them. but it just those stupid feelings that won’t go away, the more i see successful happy people i more i feel my self as a loser

@neha55511

sorry for being personal but r u outgoing now and do u have a bf now??

it’s all right i don’t mind it at all.

well, i guess i am outgoing but due to religious reasons i don’t have a boyfriends and i don’t hang around with guys also. i do have guys in my class but i don’t really communicate with them more then what is needed for the class purposes.
i don’t want to go around dating guys in order to find a husband. i don’t want to do a sunnah (marriage) by going through gunnah.

@DramayBazz

you are one brave girl but don’t let yourself indulge in self-pity or self-hate, they can be very destructive traits. my advice would be not to put all your faith and hopes in a marriage to fix all your problems, your expectations are too high, no one can fix our problems for us or take them away, only we have the ability to do so.

i know its easier said than done, but its important to find peace and happiness within yourself first, build self-confidence and have faith in your personal strengths and abilities before moving on. good luck.

you are right, i do rely on marriage to much to have my problems fixed. i try not to but at the times of complete darkness around me, i see marriage as the only way out and then i can’t help not expecting too much from it. i guess maybe it’s just the easy way out for me, and sometimes i get scared that what if marriage doesn’t exactly turn out to be what i have been expecting from it. and i think if that happens i will be completely devastated.
but INSHALLAH i hoping to fix my self because god forbid anything like this happens.