Husband is on my side but his views change when they fill his ears. Like, before marriage he told me I could work and I did. But, after said stuff to me and to him that me working is not good coz no girl in their khandaan has ever worked blah blah blah, he told me “it’s better” that I quit. There are many things that he changes after they say something. He says that he does that to avoid conflict so they don’t say “more” stuff.
I stopped taking the meds coz I was gaining a lot of weight and I was not feeling too good on them, despite my Dr. changing them a few times. Like I said, I can’t go out w/o them. I even have to take them especially my mil, even if I go out to get onions! And they expect me to stay home too. I really really really want to ignore them like not care what they say but I haven’t learnt that yet
I can’t go out. I mean, I have to them take my mil even if I’m going to check the mail, I swear! I mean I don’t “take” her, she just says man bhi aaungi and comes…I can’t say anything or h*ll breaks lose
I wish I can gain confidence. I feel like I’ve lost my confidence. I used to be a different person altogether before I got married. Now, I have become kinda emotionless…except being anxious/angry/hopeless/and the like! I take people’s opinion and what they say seriously and take it to heart…I just don’t know how to ignore. I don’t need all these aunties in my life but still it hurts when I hear stuff from them, knowing that I never did anything wrong
