Okay, so my soon-to-be-four is into watching our wedding videos these days with great interest. The other day, after a long time, i was watching it with her and i saw my dad and mom on my wedding day… with the happy and satisfied smiles on their faces that did not go quite proportional with their sad eyes. I felt like there was a deep sadness in those eyes, of letting me go… letting me walking out from under their wings… and sadness of not seeing my face everyday from then on.
I started recalling those last few days i spent with them before i got married, them just taking care of me to the bits and not doing anything that was just against my will.. AND me??? well i was living in a fantasy world, just looking forward to a lovely married life onwards… I just didn’t realize what was going on in their hearts. I did feel sad at times but then everytime that sadness was overcome by the joy of those little lovely phone talks/chats with my hubby-to-be.
I did watch my wedding videos a couple of times before, but this time it was different, I felt exactly what my parents did feel 5 years ago.
Today I am a mom of three. We love our kids as much as every other parent do, we want to lay down all the luxuries of life in front of them… Allah forbid if there are any suffering they have to have, we want to bear those sufferings on ourselves…
Today, my youngest one is getting ready to walk and my other two can run pretty fast… time is just flying by AND one day all three of them will walk out of our door in front of our eyes, either for their education/careers or with their spouses… and we would have to let them go - with the same happy and satisfied smiles on our faces, which i know, would not be quite proportional with the sadness in our eyes - … we will wish them good luck and all the happiness in their lives just like my parents did… but deep inside, down there something will break.
And the legacy will go on… they would be doing the same thing with their kids one day.
Aaaaaaaah how hard would it be for a parent to let their child go. I mean you can’t even let your pet animal go after having them for a couple of years. How can one let their kids go whom they gave birth, fed, cleaned, pampered, taught to walk, to read, to talk, to play soccer. For us, our kids are our center of attention… how our lives would be when the center is missing?
It’s a universal truth, it happens everywhere… you can’t keep your kids forever with you. You have to let them go! Let them go to have/start their own lives…
i didn’t know!!
) but man it’s going to be so different.
J/k! Well I woudln’t say cried but I did tear up slightly, i think it’s noticeable in the movie (coz I was lightly dabbing at my eye)…and my mom said “roh mat, $_00 lagay hain iss pe” (referring to the makeup) 
i dunno what i would do at the rukhsati. oh duh! i’m gonna in the car between those two 