i am at lowest point in my life now...i have lost all the will and motivation to live for...im living this life passivly..i have lost my confidence and self esteem and i feel awkward in social situations..n thats really emabarassing..i wasnt like this..i was cherfull and i had passions..but i lost it all...now im trying to start it all over again...has anyone been thru it before.. any suggestions..
Ahh Lost Angel, Using these words you have described exactly how I felt a year ago from today. It was awful because I even lost the will to read Namaaz. I stopped reading and didn’t even feel guilty about it. But at some point in my life previously I had obviously done some good in my life for Allah to show mercy on me one day. I managed to let my parents agree to send me back to my birth country to sort myself out. I did that and managed to find myself a job and do things that I thought not possible for myself. But my problem is that Im not out of danger yet. Although I have managed to get myself together and get my confidence back, now I gotta go back and try and handle the same thing again but better than I did the last time. Im really scared and don’t want to, but don’t have any choice. What can confidence do in the face of family pressure and a dying fathers request to go back to the same even though he knows all that I went through. I am confident and happy but only at work, when I come home, the insecurity and the sadness returns.
But to you I just wanna say, welldone for taking the first small steps to recovery. I totally understand how you feel and know just how difficult it is. Keep faith in Allah and read loads of Darood Shareef.