Troll harder.
Also Princess I’d pay attention to RV’s advice. She makes a lot of reasonable points. Just reading through what you’re saying gives me the impression that you both are world’s apart. And hate to break it to you but he is not your real love. No. Don’t let social conditioning lead you on that road. You want him yeah, you like him yeah, you feel for him yeah but love is awfully strong a word to apply in this particular scenario. My two fils.