Re: Have anyone of you ever thought about commiting a suicide in your life? 
^ you have a strange sense of humour Aliyish lad 
I’ve never even contemplated it, never even crossed my mind to do such a thing, because through the highs and lows of life, i’ve always been grateful for what i have been given, and through the lows i know that it’s just another test i face from Allah and i can come through it with the support of my family… HOWEVER this topic is close to my heart; in my previous line of work i worked in the RAF, and the reason i decided to leave was because of the prospect of being deployed in IraQ/Afhganistan for a reason i didn’t believe in… my 6yr contract was coming to an end anyway so it was quite straight forward for me to leave and my hubby was already financially stable so it would not have a big impact on our lives financially, however most of my ex-colleagues (predominantly male) were the sole providors in their family unit so it was not feasible for them to terminate their contracts… and i have lost count of the number of my ex-colleagues who have commited suicide whilst waiting in the Reserves in the UK, out of fear of being deployed into a situation that is wholly wrong…the number who have commited suicide whilst out there because of the unjust things they have seen/done… these stories you don’t really hear in the news… you just hear about the opposition killing the western soldiers… and tbh i dread to think what would have happened to me if my contract didn’t expire… and i thank Allah everyday in my prayers for it.