Grief

[yanzala]

@lovelybabe

I feel sorry for your loss. You have to understand that its completely normal for you to take the time afterlosing someone in such and unexpected and quick way. I guess you’ll come to accept and adjust with the reality of the situation in time and maybe you’ll find a way of to deal with your loss.

I was very much attached to my grand mother and after losing her, I was more or less in similar situation for over 2 years. To be honest, its been 6 years now, and when I think of my country (i;ve moved since then) I still see her as part of the family back home but in less than a second I realise she’s not there anymore. It still hurts when you think of all the times and how you could have changed some things and maybe spent more time with the person you lost, but I don’t think we miss them any less or care any less about the loss of a loved one as time passes.

you are right
after her death i don’t feel like going to pakistan anymore. i can’t go and stay at her house because it’s not my phoppo’s house anymore, it’s my cousin’s place. i have lost a home now. the way she used to make me feel home and how comfortably i used to be in pakistan during her life, i just can not live that way anymore in pakistan.