Hi. I just need to vent. And maybe get some advice along the way. Or not.
Why are some friends just straight up a-holes down the road? The stupidest things turn into a big deal. And I get the whole, if they truly care they will be there etc etc and whatnot. But still. What happened to putting effort in ?
The more I try - “TRY” being the operative word here, to stay in touch with my friends, the more I see some of them just plain backing off, and then I back off too.
For example, one friend I’ve been friends with for over 5 years now, recently stops talking to me because I had to give her an alternative to our plans of hanging out, and this cick stops talking to me cuz she apparently got that mad. I messaged her several times over the course of 3 weeks with no reply. When I finally asked straight up - is there a reason you are ignoring me? is when she replies back within minutes saying she never got my messages. Um okay- you still haven’t talked to me in 3 weeks regardless if you “didnt get my messages”.
Another - we were supposed to hang out but she was running late, kept telling me she had to pick up her car. so i assume theres something wrong with it and ask what happened, and she says nothing. A little while later I asked again why she came from another part of town with her car, where did she go? She says again, that that’s where her car was. So then my husband pipes in and finally she goes, I bought a new car. My jaw dropped, for some reason she didn’t want me to know she bought a new car. Yet, let me buy a new dress or something, and she gets mad at me cuz apparently I hide stuff. I congratulated her and she just smiled. And later, when we were walking out to our cars to go home, I asked to see her new car, she pointed it out in the distance and that was it. So I said goodnight and left without another word.
jealousy is the last thing on my mind if that’s what she was thinking.
wth
aaghghhhh … I am really rethinking if having friends is even worth the trouble sometimes. I try to be fair with them, and open, and honest, and care. Yet, sometimes when I don’t get that in return, I back off.
I like having genuine people in my life, yet sometimes “genuine” people even turn on me. I wonder what I’m doing wrong ? 
okay, done with the rant