Re: Feelings deep inside the Heart, left unexpressed
My siblings would think that I am crazy as I am talking about arguements and fights when we were below 13. By the grace of Allah nothing as such happened after that. But sometimes those images of childhood fights when comes infront of my eyes, it makes me feel unhappy and I ask forgiveness from Allah.
Well, I don't know if it is a communication problem. I feel shy is saying it to them. I know my parents want that I should complete my Ph.D in construction and transportation engineering in Turkey, after that I might come back and start my passion of Islamic studies course and live with them.
I think they know sometimes I miss them alot, I also told them a few times. I know they also miss me alot, but they advice me that such sacrifices should be given in order to achieve good status in society. The worst fear I have is that during this time if (Allah forbid) anything happens to my mom (who is diabetic) or my dad (who has high blood pressure) I might repent all my life for not being able to serve them, which is more important to me than having good job or status in life