Re: feeling jealous and envious.. gone suicidal
may be there are few miraculous births where people are born with the right knowledge, otherwise all of us here were once jahil.
we didnt know what life is? and we harshly say things that we shouldn't.
its a Shaitan's duty till the day of judgement to distract humans from right path and make them follow its path that leads to Hell.
you are a grown-up man, and at your age there are many girls become women and become mothers of many people like you. the problem is you haven't faced hunger, you haven't slept on the roads. you have access to every happiness but you are crying for something that is truly unnecessary. and instead of using good use of the resources and consult Quran and psychiatrist, you are committing online shirk here (as if we haven't seen suicidal before, or as if Pakistan dont get affected cuz of suicidal attacks).
ps. are you sure you are not a bipolar? kher in any case...start listening to Quran's translation. quarter of a para everyday. it will bring cure you. Ameen