Re: feeling jealous and envious.. gone suicidal
Salaam Ozair bro. First of all, plz dont committ suicide. Committing suicide does not resolve anyone’s problem even though we may think so. Infact, ones who committ suicide are punished in the hereafter in the same manner which they committed suicide. My suggestion to you is plz read this pamphlet.
Dawat-e-Islami > Books Library
InshaAllah after you read this, thoughts of suicide will go away. So plz do consider reading this.
2nd, you feel you were beaten up by your parents because you used to play video games all the time. Unfortunately, many of us don’t realize this but whatever our parents do is for the best of us. it seems like your parents wanted you to stop playing so much video games and get involved in other stuff, but unfortunately you failed to realize this. Now that you are facing this world on your own, you have realized that wasting all that time playing video games has harmed you because you could have had spent that time with friends and doing other valuable things. But it’s never too late.
You should start off with praying 5 times regularly. Peace of hearts is definitely in Allah’s rememberance. In addition, start making DUA. Allah definitely knows how you are feeling, and if you cry in front of your Allah Insha Allah you will feel so much better. Remember DUA is a momin’s weapon.
As far as making friends, unfortunately, in this world people dont come to you. You would have to pitch in yourself. So maybe you can start off with making some friends in your class. Organize a group study that way you will get to know your classmates.
As far as being loved, love Allah and Rasool Sallalaho Alahey Wasulum. Surely Allah and Rasool Sallalaho Alahey Wasulum love you. The way to know how much Allah loves you is to ask yourself how much do you love Allah. Tha’s how much Allah loves you.
Plz dont give up hope. Be optimistic. Dont forget to keep in touch with your family especially your parents and get their duas.