feel SAD- looked bad on my WEDDING DAY.. :( lessons...

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Re: feel SAD- looked bad on my WEDDING DAY.. lessons…

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sigh, unfortunately i too am apart of this club. my biggest mistake was taking on everything myself with my parents. even though i am so close with all of my cousins, not a single one of them was around to help me get ready, tell me how i “really” looked, or anything like that because i had taken on the role of “everything is under control” and was acting so calm on the outside when in reality all i wanted to do was break down and cry and just wished my family could of taken on some of the responsibility. thinking back on it now, being financially strained through out the entire wedding that i had just settled for most of the details because i didnt want my parents to feel any more financial pressure than we were already in and now looking back on it, it is such a blur because i have forced myself to forget about my entire wedding. i have not even been able to sit through my wedding video once it FINALLY came months later because i just want to move on from it. i too didnt tell my make up people that i didnt like what they were doing on my mehndi (i am okay with my wedding day, kinda,.. my stupid duppatta and hair girl was in a rush to leave because her boyfriend kept calling her ugh i should of been more demanding but i just dont know how to be. unfortunately my hubby had to get the brunt of it all a few days later on our honey moon where i cried almost every night because i was just so sad about so many things, in addition to already being sad that i was moving to a new country and was just missing my parents. yuck. i hate thinking about any of it, even now, and i just cant help but feel a little envious/ jealous that my cousins that are getting married after me are able to learn from everyones past mistakes and have the wedding of their dreams with enormous budgets. although now in hindsight, i’d spend even more limited money with limited guests and keep as much cash as i could for my life AFTER the wedding which you realize is more important after its all said and done. as long as you are happy with your choices AFTER its all over, does it make it really worth it. otherwise your just looking back on it with regrets.

im coming up to two years and my poor mom keeps asking me to make an album, i have still yet to make a photo album of my day because i wasnt really happy with the work or my bridal shots. but ill eventually get to it, just have been putting it off because i only really liked one picture of mine from the wedding day. it sucks because i do a little wedding photography myself and i just hate my own wedding photos of myself. sigh, what can you do. alhumdulillah i am so happy with my hubby though (inlaws are kind of annoying, actually a lot lol) but he is an amazing husband and so supportive that alhumdulillah i have stopped caring about all of that now for the most part. whats done is done right? because we still have the rest of our lives to look forward to right? it was ONE day, yes it may never come back, but life goes on. i think i’ve been able to take my own experience with me into some of my work because i like to tell my brides ahead of time to designate so and so for these certain tasks so i can follow their lead during a moment or many in their events, i am usually all up in a brides face trying to get as many pictures of her as i can, and i always tell them all to remember to SMILE at ALL times because we forget everything except for what is caught on camera forever. EVERYONE is stressed out and under pressure during their wedding but you wont even remember what your were stressing about once your pictures come back, so stay calm, stay collected, and no matter what is happening in front of you, just keep smiling and your beauty will shine through for itself! i have never really seen an “ugly” bride if i think about it!

im like u, control freak and very independent