Re: failing at parenthood??
Motus,
Please don't worry too much its very easy to feel down especially so soon after a birth with all your hormones still all over the place. All babies are different....except i had a baby just like yours and thats why i know things will get better becuase my 'baby'is almost 8!!!
If she drinks froma a bottle...thats ok. I know its annoying having to sanitise everything but you won't be breastfeeding forever so its good that she had taken the bottle. I had to struggle on with breast because he woulddn't take the bottle. Except my milk was not very good and he wasn't thriving at all...and because he was hungry he nver slept (and i mean never) my mum and sister were so worreid about me...i felt like a zombie and no doubt looked like one!!!
Not all babies sleep and she is only one month...it takes a couple of months for babies to fall into a routine. you need to ensure that you encourage a a peaceful environment and be calm i yourself as she will pick up on the fact that you are anxious...
If she is burping alot..ensure that when you feed her the teat is full so that so air does not go through. If not give her gripe water. I hear that it is good for trapped air/gas etc. I have never used it so don't really kno.
Motherhood is never easy and this is recognised by the fact that Allah has said that heaven lies under the feet of your mother....as far as reading goes try Ayat-ul-kursi (or if anyone can suggest something more relevant...)
Try to keep calm and get out of the house by attending mother baby gorups etc or just go for a walk with her in buggy...some fresh air will do her good as long as it is ok to go.
like i said before it will get better. I really was left so shaken from my expereince with my first one that i couldn't imagine going through it all again but guess what i did it again and now i have two lovely boys and i can say that my bond with the big one is stronger because of what i went through with him.....
will keep you in my prayers.