Peace diwana
The only thing I know to do in this case is to undertake du'a for forgiveness and/or do Tawbah on the sinful things of the past and then to seek help in correcting from that disposition.
To say that "I know that I do not deserve such and such, but to whom shall I ask except You?"
Say that "one will be good, and that you wish assistance to maintain that good and tawfiq to be asking good in the best way, and tawfiq to say that you are blessed already to be in a position where you are asking for good no matter how deficient it may be, but to whom else can this plea be made, if not to the Lord of the Universe?"
Yes. Indeed.
My question acually was more towards those dua which puts 'condition' on Allah (Nauz).
You give me that and I will do that. Not a good way to ask for something. Right?
But looking in different way one hopes if Allah wants for me to be good and does not want me to go stray...then perhaps the dua will be accepted. Not acually making a reciprocal 'deal'.
Some people say; I will go to umrah if this happens. I will stop being abusive to spouse if this happens. I guess in this regard it may not be a bad way to ask something.
A counter argument will be: Just do the good anyway. Because it is expected of you.
So I gave you two scenarios.
1- Putting condition before one does something which is good.
2- Promising (not putting condition) that one will do something good, which is 'extra' and beyond regular good deeds.
Any thoughts on it?
Making Dua and Qubooliat of Dua is delicate matter.