Dispair!!!

[Khumar]

Re: Dispair!!!

@tweety_pie

The problem is that the issues im facing i cannot tackle, family members beig ill, loosing my home, i was faced with being homeless for a while, evily relatives, friends turning on you, deaths, the list goes in. I think my greatest pitfall is the fact that i have lost my faith, but i c no way of regaining it either.

I knw there is reward for sabr, but i have none left, ive lost trust in ALLah majorily, every1 tells me to keep faith and for a while i day to myself that i have to try and regain it, but i dont knw, it sounds so bad to say i just feel so disgusted bby religion, i feel so let down,

I think ppl on GP are probably sic of hearing my complaints of my lack of faith, and my depression, i guess this is the only place where people will actually listen to wht im listen, every1 else i knw seems to mute out wht i need say

considering what you’ve went through, it’s absolutely understandable that you feel that way. sometimes you need something to shake your faith, to help you understand why in the world are you doing faith wise what you are doing. people have had much minor reasons to stop praying, but you have huge reasons.

first things first, and i’m going to hear a lot about this i know, if you don’t feel like praying, don’t force it. yes it’s a farz, but what’s the point of praying a namaz, of having a conversation with your lord almighty when you don’t have your heart in it? and Allah is understanding. He understands what is in your heart better than you do.

then, realize that there is always an up right after a down. And God puts us through terrible terrible tests. like someone told me, they are so tough sometimes, that you have no other option but to fall down on your knees and cry out to Him. So think of everything as a test. a really really tough test. and He wants to see how you do in your test. Who you turn to, what you do. And there is a good in everything that happens. Think about it, would you rather stay with your friends and family and not know the bad side of them, only to have them stab you in the back eventually? atleast you know their character now, and can find better people. money and health come and go, and now you are wiser about things, can prepare well for the future. you might not see it now, but you will eventually. So all of this, this is just a test. He puts everyone through tests, and our goal has to be to pass these tests with flying colors.

Turn to Him now, or tomorrow. it doesn’t matter, because He is always there, more than humans. Deal with your inner demons first of all. Why you don’t feel like praying. you said your faith is strong, it’s just being tested. So don’t worry about that. talk to someone right now. a person. get the help from anywhere. any person. (a good one ofcourse) the sooner you can let it out, the sooner you can get back. He hasn’t let you down, don’t feel that. It’s just his way of showing tough love.